Monday, July 09, 2007

Feeling the Mommy Guilt

Disclaimer to the following post: Chase has been known to "be sick" on more than one occasion. Maybe he was tired of school or didn't want to do something. We have fallen for his ploys in the past and we are determined not to be fooled again. Maybe too determined.

Every once in a while, Chase stops taking his asthma preventative medicine. It always results in his asthma returning, but somehow we hold onto the fantasy that he will outgrow it. He hasn't yet. Recently we tried the experiment again. The asthma returned and we started the preventative medicine again. We then went to the farm, during wheat harvest. Wheat harvest and Chase do not get along well. His asthma was triggered after only a short time in the midst of the wheat. The next day, he had to go shopping with the girls instead of farming with the boys. He told my sister-in-law that if he had fairy god-parents then he would wish for no asthma and no growth problems - I would wish for that too.

Today, the boys started College for Kids. I met them for lunch and Chase was not feeling well because of his asthma. I did not know whether to believe him or not. Was he just nervous about his classes, was he just tired, did he just want to be lazy? I decided to take him home. He took an Ibuprofen and had a breathing treatment. When I checked on him later, he was feeling better. We were expecting some friends from out of town for dinner so I wanted Chase to do a small chore. He was moaning and groaning and I thought he was just be lazy (something he has been prone to lately). I started grumping at him and he drug himself downstairs. I am grumping and then I feel his burning hot forehead! He was running 103 degree fever!!! Mommy guilt DELUXE! I am immediately concerned about pneumonia because that is what happens with Chase. Plans with our friends are cancelled and a visit to the after-hours clinic was substituted. Chase has pneumonia and an ear infection. His ear wasn't even bothering him. After a high-powered breathing treatment, steroids, and I.V. antibiotics, we headed home. I apologized several times to Chase. I guess this time he was not faking! I felt really bad!

4 comments:

Jennifer said...

Jenna,

I'm pretty sure we have all done that a time or two. Don't beat yourself up. You know that you would not intentionally overlook his fever or make hime doing a chore while being sick. You are just buy- a mom of 4 for goodness sake- and you can't catch every little detail.

Jennifer said...

Okay, guess I can't spell this morning. You are "busy" not "buy" and drop the "e" from him. Geeesh!

Laurie said...

Poor guy! I can relate Jenna! I experience Mommy Guilt at least once a week. Sometimes, after the kid's go to bed I just sit and watch them looking so sweet sleeping and think about all I could have done differently that day. I just tell myself that tommorow is a new day....I miss y'all! Hopefully I will see you soon!

See-Dub said...

We've all been there--certain we're not going to be duped and missing actual symptoms!